I may be just a little bit obsessed with Instagram lately. I seem to spend hours without realising, scrolling down my feed and getting totally jealous of everyone's amazing photos. Spending so long trying to pick a 'theme', taking photo's that match said 'theme' and generally just becoming an instageek.
So before I start, you may be wondering why the word cope is in quotation marks. The main reason is because I use the word cope very, very loosely. Mostly due to the fact that I still don't think I am at the stage where I am fully coping with my anxiety, more just learning how to manage it. I still have and probably always will have really bad days, it's just more recently they have been a lot more frequent and my attacks have been worse.
So for the past few days I have been in Lancaster visiting my best friend. On Saturday, we decided to go on a walk round the park by Ashton Memorial. The building itself was commissioned by Lord Ashton in 1909, in memory of his late wife. It is such a beautiful building which completely dominates Lancaster's skyline, situated in Williamson Park.
When I was younger, the thought of living on my own was actually quite terrifying. Who's going to cook everyday? Who's going to do all the cleaning? Who's going to pay all the bills? How the hell do you even pay bills? But in actual fact - it's awesome.
I realise I have been a little bit MIA again and I can only apologise. Life kind of got in the way. But I'm back (for reals this time).
I have recently just celebrated my 23rd birthday and in those 23 years of being alive (congrats to me for surviving this long), I have learned a number of things, some more important than others, but hey, maybe you'll laugh along with my stupidity.
I bet you're all thinking "Oh my God, you are actually posting!". Yes, yes I am. Well, I can guarantee a lot of you have probably not noticed or lost interest and I completely do not blame you. I haven't posted since January (sorry!). You see the funny thing is, I was supposed to be daily blogging this year. Yeah I know. I got to the 9th January, 9 DAYS. Oh well, maybe next year!
This year, seeing as I love (and have a slight obsession) with music, I thought I would start a series in which I share with you my monthly playlist. I was considering doing this a while back but thought 'Nah, I'll save it until the New Year, that way it looks more exciting' (How I thought this would make any difference when I started it, I do not know, but let's roll with it shall we). I did a post like this during Blogmas 'The Best Christmas Playlist' and people seemed to enjoy it, so I thought, why not continue doing it monthly. So here I am.
Now before you start thinking, no, this isn't a full tour of my phone because lets be honest, that would be painfully boring. For both me writing it and you reading it. However, I thought it would be useful to show you a few of my favourite/most used apps. These are apps that I tend to use daily and/or could not live without (I'm joking, but they do of course make my life a whole lot easier!)
If you don't like personal posts then this really will not be the one for you. Today is much more of a serious post. I have been keeping this sat in my drafts for I don't know how long. I'd go back to it every now and then, decide to change parts of what I wrote or cut parts out, go to publish it and then think 'I just can't do it!' I have just been so scared of showing people the other side to me that most don't see. There are parts of my life I try and keep relatively private and this is one of them.
I asked on Twitter a few days ago, if people would be interested in seeing some of my artwork and a lot of people said yes, so your wish is my command! Art has been a strong passion of mine since a young age and I have always found myself with a pencil in my hand, whether it be just sketching and scribbling or actually producing a piece.
I love Bucket Lists. I love any kind of lists. I'm a very "listy" person. Ok, that's not a word, but who cares! Did anyone else used to create bucket lists? I know that I still have bucket lists of all the crazy things I want to do before I die and of all the places I want to travel to. I find it so satisfying being able to tick things off a list. I can't be the only one?
I honestly cannot believe I am even thinking of writing this post. 2015 is over! When the hell did that happen? I swear the years get quicker and quicker. It feels like only yesterday that we were celebrating the start of 2015 and now we are celebrating the start of 2016. I'm going to be 23 this year and that is genuinely terrifying! I'm also going to be trying daily blogging this year and that's even more terrifying. I don't think I quite realise the challenge I have placed on myself but we'll see how this one goes, shall we?
